Sometimes I wonder "will your chase someone for so long even if you know is impossible to get it? Or you will rather give up and move on? " if you ever know how it feel is like chasing the sun. You can keep chasing but no matter how long you chase it will still be impossible to get it. What am I even waiting for? For the right moment to give up? I don't know.
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Wednesday, May 30, 2012
@4:08 PM
I am really sorry for being such a jerk. I don't know you actually think that way. I was actually just making sure you are not bored and safe. But I guess you don't feel it that way. I should not have sit beside you in the bus cause you felt uncomfortable that someone might say something about it. I guess you are right. I should not have sit beside at the first place. I am being inconsiderate. But it's okay I won't do that again for your sake. I should understand you more.
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Monday, May 21, 2012
@5:35 AM
No matter how many times I told myself to stop it but in the end I'm still doing it. I should give up now since I know the answer but my heart says otherwise. This seems so awkward for me. Whenever I saw other couples I just wish I were them. I am not being desperate just curious. It just seems so weird. Sometimes I wonder, did you appreciate every little things I did for you? How precious am I to you? I know if one day I was about to leave you it won't hurt you as much as it hurt me.
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Tuesday, May 15, 2012
@9:03 AM
Where is God's Perfection?
In Brooklyn, New York, Chush is a school that caters to learning disabled children. Some children remain in Chush for their entire school career, while others can be mainstreamed into conventional schools.
At a Chush fund-raising dinner, the father of a Chush child delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended.
After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he cried out, "Where is the perfection in my son Shaya? Everything God does is done with perfection. But my child cannot understand things as other children do. My child cannot remember facts and figures as other children do. Where is God's perfection?"
The audience was shocked by the question, pained by the father's anguish, stilled by the piercing query.
" I believe," the father answered, "that when God brings a child like this into the world, the perfection that he seeks is in the way people react to this child."
He then told the following story about his son Shaya:
One afternoon Shaya and his father walked past a park where some boys Shaya knew were playing baseball.
Shaya asked, "Do you think they will let me play?"
Shaya's father knew that his son was not at all athletic and that most boys would not want him on their team. But Shaya's father understood that if his son was chosen to play it would give him a comfortable sense of belonging.
Shaya's father approached one of the boys in the field and asked if Shaya could play. The boy looked around for guidance from his teammates. Getting none, he took matters into his own hands and said "We are losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him up to bat in the ninth inning."
Shaya's father was ecstatic as Shaya smiled broadly. Shaya was told to put on a glove and go out to play short center field.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shaya's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shaya's team scored again and now with two outs and the bases loaded with the potential winning run on base, Shaya was scheduled to be up. Would the team actually let Shaya bat at this juncture and give away their chance to win the game? Surpassingly, Shaya was given the bat.
Everyone knew that it was all but impossible because Shaya didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, let alone hit with it. However as Shaya stepped up to the plate, the pitcher moved a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shaya should at least be able to make contact.
The first pitch came in and Shaya swung clumsily and missed. One of Shaya's teammates came up to Shaya and together the held the bat and faced the pitcher waiting for the next pitch. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly toward Shaya. As the pitch came in, Shaya and his teammate swung at the bat and together they hit a slow ground ball to the pitcher.
The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could easily have thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shaya would have been out and that would have ended the game. Instead, the pitcher took the ball and threw it on a high arc to right field, far beyond reach of the first baseman.
Everyone started yelling,"Shaya, run to first. Run to first." Never in his life had Shaya run to first. He scampered down the baseline wide-eyed and startled. By the time he reached first base, the right fielder had the ball. He could have thrown the ball to the second baseman who would tag out Shaya, who was still running. But the right fielder understood what the pitcher's intentions were, so he threw the ball high and far over the third baseman's head. Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second." Shaya ran towards second base as the runners ahead of him deliriously circled the bases towards home. As Shaya reached second base, the opposing short stop ran to him, turned him in the direction of third base and shouted, "Run to third." As Shaya rounded third, the boys from both teams ran behind him screaming, "Shaya run home."
Shaya ran home, stepped on home plate and all 18 boys lifted him on their shoulders and made him the hero, as he had just hit a "grand slam" and won the game for his team.
"That day," said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, "those 18 boys reached their level of God's perfection."
From http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/g/godsperfection.htm
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@7:20 AM
I felt so guilty after realizing something I should have notice all this while. I had been waiting and wishing that I still have that "hope" that maybe we can be together but it seems that I'm wrong. I won't have that "hope" ever in my entire life but in fact I know that already but I'm still acting as if I have it. I should have stop treating you the way I'm treating you right now as if I still got "hope". By the way I look I am being selfish I might had indirectly restricting you to be closer to him. I am taking your freedom away. I respect any decision you made. I should leave you more gab and stop concerning too much. If you are able to take those time You spent with me and spent it with him or other things I think it might benefit you more. I know I might be thinking too much. I don't know what to do right now. Is this the time to let of everything? What should i do to benefit you most? I won't ask for too much. I'm already happy right now and I won't ask for more.
will be there for you
Saturday, May 12, 2012
@9:47 AM
Isn't it weird to have this two feeling at the same time both happy and sad? It is actually link to each other. I am happy that's why I am sad. I know it doesn't make sense but the reason why I am happy is cause she is happy. Well then you might be thinking why does this makes me sad? Hmm... Well is because I am not the reason for that happiness :x. But it doesn't matter actually what's most important is that she is happy :D even though I am not the reason for it. Good night!
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Thursday, May 10, 2012
@8:40 AM
I am so stupid!! Asking something with an obvious answer but I still ask. Everytime I ask you the same question I will regret it afterward how stupid. Stop asking that question!! Argh!! How come I could not resist it?? I am so useless. I know it won't happen even though you said it would. Should not have asked you.
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INTRODUCTION
Welcome to my blog! =)
MY NAME IS NICHOLAS
I LOVE TO PLAY BADMINTON, SOCCER,BASKETBALL
I AM BORN ON 21 SEPTEMBER 1996
MY FAVOURITE COLOUR IS YELLOW
MY CCA IS NCC AND I LOVE IT
MUSIC
I LOVE MUSIC CAUSE SOME MUSIC REMIND ME OF SOMEONE I LOVE
MUSIC IS MY LIFE
I LIKE POP MUSIC BUT NOT K POP
I LIKE WESTLIFE, BON JOVI, SIMPLE PLAN,MLTR, MICHAEL JACKSON AND LINKIN PARK
FAVOURITE MUSIC
1. Breaking my heart -MLTR
2. It's not easy to be me - Five for fighting
3. Fucking perfect -P!nk
4. I'll be there for you -Bon Jovi
5. I lay my love on you -Westlife
6. If i had you - Adam Lambert
7. It's my life -Bon Jovi
8. Just the way you are -Bruno Mars
9. Last to know -Three day grace
10. 25 minutes - MLTR
11. Paint my love -MLTR
12. You'll be in my heart -Phill collins
13.Queen of my heart -Westlife
14.The reason -Hoobastank
15. I'll be right here waiting for you -Richard marx
16.Perfect -Simple plan
17. Welcome to my life -Simple plan
18. Take me to your heart -MLTR
19. That's why you go away -MTLR
20. Two is better than one -Boys like girls
21. We weren't born to follow -Bon Jovi
22. Fool again - Westlife
23. If i let you go - Westlife
24. Mandy - westlife
25. What makes a man -Westlife
26. When you say nothing at all -Westlife
27. I don't want to miss a thing -Aerosmith
28. Victims of love -Good charlotte
29. 21 guns -Green day
30. 1000 years -Christina perri
QUOTES
1.the person you got to defeat is yourself
2. "I trust you" is better than "I love you" because you may not always trust the person you love, but you can always love the person you trust
3. Never get jealous when you see your ex with someone else, because our parents taught us to give our used toys to the less fortunate
4. I can fake a smile. I can pretend to be happy. I can pretend that I don't care, but what I can't do is pretend that I don't love you
5. The most beautiful thing in the world is to see someone smiling & knowing that you're the reason behind that smile
6. The most painful thing to do is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel
7. just because i don't start the conversation, doesn't mean i'm not dying to speak to you
8. During times like these, the best advice is in the music
9. yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery and today is a gift that is why is called present
10. A relationship with NO TRUST is like a car with no gas. You can stay in it all you want but it won't go anywhere
11. I don't think I will ever find someone that makes me feel the way you made me feel
12. You have no idea how much I like you, how much you make me smile, how much I love talking to you, or how much I wish you were mine
13. That feeling u get when you feel like your being lied to but u believe them because u love them
14. I always find myself texting you first. I hate it. But I still do. Cause if I don’t start the conversation, there would never be one
15. Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control
16. Maybe the reason why you have to stop loving a person is because fate chose both of you to be friends, when forever is a lot more possible
17.Loving someone who doesn't love you back is like hugging a cactus, The tighter you hold on, the more it's going to hurt
18. It really sucks when the only person who can make you feel better is also the reason why you cry
19. Music is my escape. It silences the world and my worries
20.Sometimes the best way to stay close to someone you love is by being just a friend
21. The most beautiful thing is to see the person you love smiling & even more beautiful is, knowing that you are the reason behind it
22. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! -Rocky Balboa
23. Never ignore someone who cares for you because someday you'll realize you've lost a diamond while you were busy collecting stones